i knew it wouldn't be long til these emotions come to haunt me. im getting used to it's regular visits. i was kinda worried when i was so happy & carefree the last few weeks. the more happier & carefree, the more these emotions would push me down later. i should've just made the most out of those cheerful days while it lasted, and deal with the emotions when it comes.
but why am i feeling this way? everything doesn't seem right. at all. initially, things were goin great...what with the band gettin to the semi-finals, and school being bucketfuls of awesome fun. then suddenly everything seems so different. i was just warning the guys earlier today that i get stressed easily. like now. im so stressed. stressed over the same things i was so happy about just a few days ago. im remaining positive tho. can't wait for it to be over...go away, go away and leave me alone. please, i beg of you. is being happy too much to ask for?
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what is wrong with me? i seriously need proper time management training. there's just too many things for me to do right now. the pace in school is noticeably speeding up. i believed that i can cope. i still believe. Body Combat is now TWICE a week. Tuesday and Thursday. And the choreography is much more vigorous now, i felt like passing out after the 4th part, every time. the band needs waaayy more serious attention than i thought it'd need. we've been seriously serious all along, but it just got more serious and...how many times have i mentioned 'serious'? argh. the more i think about it, the more the serious-ness of it gets to me and the more stressed i get and when i'm stressed i go bonkers. you don't wanna see me when i go bonkers. seriously.
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the guys and i had to go down to the SPH building again earlier today. after which we went down to Junction 8 to check out the Open Plaza where the Semi-Finals and Finals are gonna be held. i brought along my digicam and we kept stopping to take pictures.
Listen up to "Morning glory with Suzanne walker" on WKRZ - 21st & 22nd July, 9-10am for an interview with amber and me.
later.
the glamourchine laughed at 11:55 PM
